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Forget About
03:04
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He says I’m running from my past
He says I’m running from my sick past
He says I’m running from my sickness
Past becoming so suspicious
*I won’t forget about, can’t seem to forget about
Won’t you please forget about me?
He says it’s out to get me
From yesterday I’m rarely free
Just trying to live my life
Trying to live the rest of my life*
Seems we live backwards and forwards…
And never in the moment
He says what’s up ahead
For yesterday is finally dead
He says I have to trash my past
He says if I want this to last*
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2. |
Epimetheus' Box
02:15
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He gave her gifts of darkness
That he kept in beguiling box
He hid it in her wishes
And whispered it into her thoughts
*The box was filled with wisdom
In pieces, together he made
A cruel paradox of temptation
A purpose that man must contain
Epimetheus’ Box is the present
That woman in grace must receive
While obeying forbidden to open
Overwhelmed by a curious seed*
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Car
02:49
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She took a ride in his car
They didn’t have to go very far
But it wasn’t long before he slowed
Spent the night with suggestive words
He was curious from what he heard
It wasn’t long before he was provoked
*It was something that didn’t last
Went too far, they went too fast
Took a ride in his car, it was cold and it was dark
Wasn’t long before he took off her clothes
This is a game that we can play
But you can’t tell anyone all the same
This is something no one should know*
Don’t kill yourself, change schools instead
Took a ride in his car, he started fast from where they parked
She bent, crouching down so low
She was naked but he didn’t care
Wouldn’t give up his cold hard stare
This is how a friendship grows*
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4. |
Endless Loops
02:05
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On endless loops inside my brain
My own blood my fingers stained
Take away the love you gave
On endless loops inside my brain
On endless loops inside your brain
Speak them and our interest wanes
Repeat them without taste to tame
On endless loops inside your brain
Loop de loop again and again
Ceaselessly, seeming without end
Driving me infinitely insane
Endless loops inside the brain
On endless loops inside our brains
Break them and we’re free, unchained
Change, and then we aren’t the same
No endless loops inside our brains…
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5. |
Nothing
03:15
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During the holidays, the lights can dazzle sparkles in our eyes
Sometimes through tears though, with memories on my mind
*Once we were laughing
Then there was the pain
One day I lost you, I remember, and
Nothing is the same
I find myself talking, as though you’re there, I miss your smile
Allow it, and your spirit tells me you’ve been here all the while*
Nothing is the same but I know you’re here
Don’t let me forget this fact
In time we’ll be together again
But you’re not coming back*
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6. |
Desires and Needs
03:53
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He’s quite a good actor, you know he’s more than he seems
As he’s living a life that no one wants to see
They love him and they pet him, too cute to run away
But what they don’t see is his reason not to stay
*He may stay for a while, as we laugh and wave him by
We confirm his self-denial, life is a joke, and death is a smile
He’s performed his way through, little boy made it through his teens
As he’s living in between his desires and his needs
They hide him and disguise him, that’s how he wants to be
But the end is drawing nearer, because no one wants to see*
Don’t let me down, we scream it through our eyes
Like we are all that matter, to cover our own disguise
Don’t let the dying kill themselves on our sacrificial rites
Don’t let the living kill themselves on our superficial cries*
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7. |
Good Advice
03:17
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She called me up that fateful day
Full of the things she had to say
I listened, and she thanked me, kind
With words I try to keep in mind
*"Just breathe, stay in the moment
That thought, you don’t need to own it
That feeling, will come and then go"
And this, is all I need to know
She was full of wisdom from her life
Years of dealing with its strife
The highs and lows had showed her how
To get through things that got her down*
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8. |
Skater
02:49
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Your shadow looms before you
As you glide behind its lean
Seems you’re on a warm sea wave,
But you ride the cold concrete
It rare that you’re deluded
Or lost in fantasy
Because the falls, the banks, the walls
You’ll soon be on your knees...
*You were sailing down the sidewalk
So certain yet so free
An artist on the asphalt
A contrast to the street
(A defiance to the street)
Your wheels, they scrape the driveway
That you carve upon with speed
You make a path in patterns
The beholder’s eye can see
You’re made of soil and sediment
You’re human with those needs
Though you’re amused
among the refuse
You’re discarded, then redeemed...*
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Permanent Vacation
03:07
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He woke up like every other man, a man inside his home
And he didn’t like to have to work, didn’t like to be alone
But the lawyer called, and his boss went off, without provocation
And the man would find himself on a
*Permanent vacation
As he packed his bags, he stubbed his toe, swore at the sharp pain
Hurt so bad he forgot himself, and he would never be the same
For he thought of all the things it took to create this harsh sensation
And the man would then embark on a*
Many cells were organized with an ethos all their own
A senseless but pragmatic drive, creating all we know
He marveled at the schemata that became then so much clearer
Made beauty truth, the lost were found, in the reflection of a mirror
It really didn’t matter then what happened in his life
The flowers and the trees they then replaced all his strife
The dramas that obsessed him, well, they lost their captivation
As he wandered off into a new and*
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10. |
Stars
04:01
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Circles in water, small hands in the sea
Ripples in visions of what I could be
Reflections got clearer, hard to resist
Life filled with mirrors, lost in the midst
*Truth can be hard,
But this I do trust
Can’t reach for the stars,
I’m made of stardust…
Petals flutter, dew drops, they weep
Drawing me under, water so deep
Stage is a cage, the empty hall
No one knew I was there at all*
Sun pokes through, punctured space
No longer trapped inside this race…
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11. |
BlueGreen Blues
01:51
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Oceanic, this obsession, obsession colored teal
But it’s all I can make sense of, it’s all that I can feel
*It’s all it seems, but isn’t real
I cannot dwell on you, this spell cannot be true
But I lurk on the meridian, drowning in viridian*
Turquoise in the midnight, the sick hue of the half light
Flat, hard, heart of stone, in the end, is what you’ve shown*
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I’m just a hole
Who sold my soul
Conveniently addicted to your games
Your tongue of knives
Made me a wife
Completing domesticity in frame
*Paint [a] picture
Walk away
I’m not a victim
I’m just in pain
Perhaps I’m an accessory
An ornament for destiny
To decorate hard edges of your face
Why I made this stop in hell
Only through the years will tell
Walking through the fire in a haze
*
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Delusional As Usual Los Angeles, California
Marisa Gasper www.MarisaGasper.Bandcamp.com, Kyle Miska, James Rayner & Jackie Monzon... Delusional As Usual for recovery from all things insane. Marisa (vocals/guitar), Kyle (multi), James (bass), & Jackie (drums). Original: Marisa Gasper (vocals/guitar), Thomas Ferranti (bass), Wendy Schrodinger (Keys), and Jonathan Davis (drums). Previous: Norma Warner, and Michelle McCarthy. ... more
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